Four times in the last few years I have heard the words, “You saved my life”.
Those four words brought a mix of emotions.
For the longest time I believed I wasn’t enough to save a life.
I tried once.
At least that’s how I viewed it for a long time – as a failure on my end.
I’ve done a lot of reflection and soul searching on that experience.
Can we save people?
I’m not sure it’s black and white, but what it is… is a heavy topic and a loaded question.
I am able to look back on my life and know exactly which individuals threw me a flotation device when I needed one. Does that mean they saved my life or were they merely in the right time, at the right place, with the right words?
Were they a vessel?
I wonder if I could tell them that I wasn’t trying to save their lives. I didn’t know their lives needed saving. And honestly I don’t know how to save a life. I’m good, but I’m not that good. I learned this a long time ago, but that is a story for another day.
I do know that I met them where they were – even in the darkest of places.
I sat with them as long as they needed.
I wonder if they would be surprised to learn that hearing those words brought me humbly to my knees.
For a very long time, I have prayed.
I pray for weird things maybe.
I pray that I am always in the right place, at the right time, with the right words.
The ‘right place’, ‘right time’, and ‘right words’ are without a doubt questionable and can be debated from a million different perspectives. And yet, it is neither here nor there, because in the end, if a life was saved – a life was saved – period.
Most of these conversations took place over the telephone.
If you ever read the day I got the call, you may find irony in the telephone life-saving-scenario.
I was at a loss at a very challenging moment in my life. I had no idea what to do. I was on auto-pilot big time. A miracle occurred at the precise moment when I felt like I was drowning. I received a phone call. She didn’t take me out of the water, but she threw me a flotation device.
I will never be a savior, but I hope that I will always be in the right place, at the right time, with the right words. I hope that I am given the opportunity to throw a flotation device. And if given that opportunity, I will throw with all the strength that flows within me.
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