We were in the garage in that moment.
“WHY DO YOU WRITE CHRISTINE?”
There were a million questions behind that single one.
He wanted to know if it was worth it.
He was trying to understand.
“I write for many reasons”. That’s all I gave him in that moment.
My voice was taken many times.
This is a combination of experiences throughout my life. If you’ve read my stories, perhaps you will pick up on those times.
These will be my final words to my children.
My kids have experienced death from a young age. I know the questions that come from death. I’ve heard them a thousand times. It doesn’t frighten me. No. Rather, I reflect on how to answer questions my children may have later on. I have one child that will only read my writings upon my death. He acknowledged this. I hope I get to them all. I hope to lessen all their questions.
Sometimes I need to process.
It’s true. Sometimes I simply need to process shit. You may pick up on those times.
I live in a small town.
Small towns are often guarded people. They guard their hearts and their stories. Vulnerability is the opposite of stoicism. Call me crazy, but I still believe there is power in vulnerability.
I’m a psychologist in training.
How can I expect others to process and own their stories if I cannot do the same? I’ll never throw myself upon a pedestal claiming to be the “all knowing” or the “savior”. I’ve known life too.
I have a story to tell.
There are many sides to every story. This is my story. These are my experiences. This is my interpretation. This is what I learned.
Writing is therapeutic.
It’s an outlet of mine. Need I say more?
Courage is contagious.
I happen to believe that there is power in telling one’s story – when they are ready. I will be forever grateful for the contagious courage.
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